"Who even am I anymore???" You've seen it. The constant memes, posts, t shirts, mugs, backpacks, bumper stickers and all kinds of other shit with "Mom" on it in some way or another. There are the nonstop posters on Instagram where EVERY post is about motherhood. I ask them in my head "what about YOU?"… Continue reading Who are you besides a mom?
The thing is, nobody can answer this question. Not me, not my therapist, not any of my friends. I think the hardest thing is that nobody truly knows how I feel. Nobody knows that sometimes its hard to get out of bed and already be tearing up between walking to my bed and the bathroom… Continue reading When will I feel better?
I talk a lot about feeling like I am frozen in time. I feel like my emotions are sometimes that of an adolescent girl. Sure, I feel like I am an adult, there is no doubt about that. But, when it comes to feeling alone, abandoned and emotional, I feel like a young teenager. I… Continue reading Part 2: What would I say to my 14 year old self if I could?
When I think about my life, I think about it in phases or segments. Its compartmentalized to different years like before I moved to Houston or after I was sent to boarding school or after I had consensual sex. I don't think of my life as a fluid progression. I almost feel like a different… Continue reading Part 1: So, just tell me about middle school then
Recently (Yes, like 5 days ago) I decided that the long distance love thing wasn't working for me. When I think about a relationship or getting to know someone, I think about doing the most normal things together but they feel like magic. Like, going to the farmer's market or after sex Netflix binge watching.… Continue reading The Next 6 Months
Highly functional in the realm of mental illness is typically described as someone who has many symptoms of a mental illness or is diagnosed with a mental illness but continues to work and live life in a somewhat "functional" way. When I met my therapist, she described some of the patients that she typically works… Continue reading Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: What You Don’t Understand
I started seeing my therapist in November 2017. Soon after that, I went to see a psychiatrist (the first one I saw didn't listen to me at all and it was just a bad connection *cue the old AOL dial tone noise*). I went to see another psychiatrist and the medicine she has prescribed has… Continue reading Living With The Regret of Not Getting Help Sooner
Making New Year Resolutions dates back to Biblical times and if you ask me, the first cavemen were probably doing it as well. I can hear them now "I am definitely cutting out buffalo this year, it just really isn't doing much for my figure." What about you? Do you make New Year Resolutions? I… Continue reading Why Losing Weight Shouldn’t Be Your New Year Resolution PLUS 3 Resolutions That Will Bring You JOY
Within the last year and a half, I had an ex boyfriend complete suicide, I broke up with a boyfriend of 3 years, my 7 year old beagle had to be put down, I resigned from a job I had for close to 4 years and I went through another break up. I am going… Continue reading Getting Through The Grief: Short Stories of Love and Death
"Do I really HAVE to go?..Okay fine I am going but I am only staying an hour" It's that time of year where you get invited to allll the holiday parties and you're like wow I really don't wanna fucking go..right? Maybe its a work party, maybe its a family gathering, maybe its just friends.… Continue reading Overstimulated and Obligated: 6 Tips For The Holiday Party Season