I sat in my Psychiatrists office a few months ago giving an update about how my medications were impacting my symptoms and mood. She asked me I feel as happy as I did when I first began taking Pristiq.. that was a huge "HELL NO". She explained that since I was so depleted, my brain… Continue reading Chasing Euphoria
I wrote a blog post back in December 2018 Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: What You Don't Understand, besides any post about sex (go figure), this was one of my most popular blogs. In that post I wrote about hiding your condition, trying to keep it altogether with work and within relationships, how to spot… Continue reading Highly Functional and Mentally Ill: Coping Ahead
Ideally women should be: QuietSexyModestA good cookConservativeMinimize their ideas and themselvesHelpfulSubmissiveFriendlyWarmMaternaland most of all THIN This isn't a new concept. You see plastered images everywhere of thin women. Thin women who want to sell you clothes, thin women who want to sell you a dating app, thin women who want to sell you a pharmaceutical… Continue reading The Pressure To Be Thin
This isn't me but I was too lazy to find my own photo so here is a stock photo of a woman loving herself. Self hate can look like a lot of different things, right? It could be stifling your creativity, it could be self harm, it could be not getting the help that you… Continue reading How I Started To Love Myself
I have been "in" therapy since November 2017. Now that I am thinking about it, I don't think I have ever consistently seen a provider for this long. If you've been reading my blog for a while, you know that I absolutely love my therapist, Camille. Is she my person? Yes. If I told her… Continue reading Why I Still Go To Therapy Even Though I “Feel Better”
"Well, if you hadn't been such a fuck up, your life wouldn't be this way now." "I really think you should stop writing about your personal life on the internet." "Why would you change your hair?" "You shouldn't be dating as a mom." "If you lose weight, you will find a husband more easily." "Don't… Continue reading Incapable of Support
Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life "You're an inspiration" "You are so talented" "You inspire me to talk about my own mental health" "You're happiness is contagious" "You are absolutely hilarious" or my personal favorite "Please sex chat me" Yeah.. and I am wildly depressed sometimes and other times I am… Continue reading Blossoming Part 2: The Tougher Days
You've probably heard that one small change in your life can impact all the other aspects of your life, right? For instance, working out can make you want to eat healthier (or so they say). I am very body positive and against classifying foods as healthy and unhealthy, you can read about it here. Anyway,… Continue reading Blossoming Part 1: How One Thing Can Change Your Life
The thing is, nobody can answer this question. Not me, not my therapist, not any of my friends. I think the hardest thing is that nobody truly knows how I feel. Nobody knows that sometimes its hard to get out of bed and already be tearing up between walking to my bed and the bathroom… Continue reading When will I feel better?
I talk a lot about feeling like I am frozen in time. I feel like my emotions are sometimes that of an adolescent girl. Sure, I feel like I am an adult, there is no doubt about that. But, when it comes to feeling alone, abandoned and emotional, I feel like a young teenager. I… Continue reading Part 2: What would I say to my 14 year old self if I could?